well.. i did cook my food yesterday ..so thts change.. from wht i normally do.
16. Lack of style
I dont seem to have any sense of style.. in dressing. I suck at it. I dont know what size shirt fits me. I wear tshirts tht i bought from shop to bed...
All my ties are either black or blue in colour. Blue would be the only colour shirt i would buy apart from white.
17. Lack of preference for food
I dont seem to have a preferred food tht i like. I go for anything thats easily available. I would want to have a distinct taste for food, wine.. be more sofisticated in life.. If anyone asked me..how the food was.. i wouldnt know ..anything to say apart from..''its good''. Thats about the only adjective i can reach at.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Things I hate about myself
Iam terribly unhappy. I feel depressed everytime i start to write a blog. Never do actually write a blog when iam happy. I cant be bothered then.
Everything about me is WRONG. I cant figure one good thing about me. If i stop and think about everything i do..i can find a fault in it... yep..
So I decided to blog about this ...hope this blog.. which will be a complete uninterrupted crtic of my every day habits and actions... and hoping that.. by constantly reminding myself of a critic somewhere.. i shall be able to correct and rectify and make my self a better person..
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Let me summarise.. my everyday horrible habits.. and going forward. everyday i shall keep repeating this..until and unless i rectify it..
1. Wearing the same fucking underwear
One word... LAZINESS. I get up every day, and my time to get out of the bed, my first stop is to the bathroom.. and i want to finish all of that up in one quick motion. Bathing..desing uo all in one quick motion. So if that means.. i wear the same underwear..so be it. hehe.. I know i know.. fuck got to start focusing.. its not rocket science.. wash ur fucking underwears.. simple..
2. Smoking
Lets see how many ciggarates i smoke in a day. Morning walk to train station.. 1, coffee break 1, pre lunch break 1, post lunch break 1, mid afternoon 1, before finishing 1 .. on the way to station.. after getting out of station 1..
thats 7.. but still.. why do i have to smoke even.. i have become a crippple.. a serious fucking addict... i can stop this... for sure
3. drinking coffees in the mornings
I have this strange habit of drinking one coffee on the way to the station..and another one with my colleague all in the same day.. why? fucking crazy thats why.. that 5 dollars i waste in the morning on just coffee..
4. Dirty Room
Look at my fucking room. Cds lying here and there, out of their cases plastic bags.. clothes lying at one corner.. bedsheet and pillow cover not washed in a long long time.. room not vacummed in a long long time
5. Lying
Every word that comes out of my mouth is a lie. And when i lie.. it wont stop.. to cover the lie i have to make another lie.. on top of that another lie.. and it just multiplies. Its that saying.. '' to cover one truth you make a 100 lies''
6. Stopped going to the gym
I joined the Gym July 2006 and every month 80 fucking dollars are being deducted from my a/c. What particular benefit have i gained from going to the gym? None. Why, cos i dont gothere regularly. Iam a fucking pussy thats why..
7. Having the LOVE desire about every single girl I see
Every girl i have met..i have had this thought of me falling in love with that person. I should stop having that fucking desire..
8. Not drinking enough water in a day
I dont drink enough water.. forget 8 cups a day... fuck.. i dont drink.. what am i doing.. people are asked to drink 1 litre water a day..
9. Not cooking my food
10. Scared of being ridiculed
11. Unread Books
12. People taking advantage of me
Apparantly al the distant people who come in touch with me after a looong long time..have something.. i have to stop playing the LOSER.. the guy people can just walk all over.. i want to be cunning and manipulativ
13. Lack of spiritual guidance
I dont know what fucking religion i follow now. I dont know anything about my religion.. I want to believe in something. I want to adore something in life. I want to believe in this force of goodness in this world.
14. Same Hairstyle
I have been having the same fucking hairstyle since forever.
15 Same Phisyque
I have been having the same physique for quite somtime now. Slim tall.. love handles.. I want to build my body.. I hate my body..
I
Everything about me is WRONG. I cant figure one good thing about me. If i stop and think about everything i do..i can find a fault in it... yep..
So I decided to blog about this ...hope this blog.. which will be a complete uninterrupted crtic of my every day habits and actions... and hoping that.. by constantly reminding myself of a critic somewhere.. i shall be able to correct and rectify and make my self a better person..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Let me summarise.. my everyday horrible habits.. and going forward. everyday i shall keep repeating this..until and unless i rectify it..
1. Wearing the same fucking underwear
One word... LAZINESS. I get up every day, and my time to get out of the bed, my first stop is to the bathroom.. and i want to finish all of that up in one quick motion. Bathing..desing uo all in one quick motion. So if that means.. i wear the same underwear..so be it. hehe.. I know i know.. fuck got to start focusing.. its not rocket science.. wash ur fucking underwears.. simple..
2. Smoking
Lets see how many ciggarates i smoke in a day. Morning walk to train station.. 1, coffee break 1, pre lunch break 1, post lunch break 1, mid afternoon 1, before finishing 1 .. on the way to station.. after getting out of station 1..
thats 7.. but still.. why do i have to smoke even.. i have become a crippple.. a serious fucking addict... i can stop this... for sure
3. drinking coffees in the mornings
I have this strange habit of drinking one coffee on the way to the station..and another one with my colleague all in the same day.. why? fucking crazy thats why.. that 5 dollars i waste in the morning on just coffee..
4. Dirty Room
Look at my fucking room. Cds lying here and there, out of their cases plastic bags.. clothes lying at one corner.. bedsheet and pillow cover not washed in a long long time.. room not vacummed in a long long time
5. Lying
Every word that comes out of my mouth is a lie. And when i lie.. it wont stop.. to cover the lie i have to make another lie.. on top of that another lie.. and it just multiplies. Its that saying.. '' to cover one truth you make a 100 lies''
6. Stopped going to the gym
I joined the Gym July 2006 and every month 80 fucking dollars are being deducted from my a/c. What particular benefit have i gained from going to the gym? None. Why, cos i dont gothere regularly. Iam a fucking pussy thats why..
7. Having the LOVE desire about every single girl I see
Every girl i have met..i have had this thought of me falling in love with that person. I should stop having that fucking desire..
8. Not drinking enough water in a day
I dont drink enough water.. forget 8 cups a day... fuck.. i dont drink.. what am i doing.. people are asked to drink 1 litre water a day..
9. Not cooking my food
10. Scared of being ridiculed
11. Unread Books
12. People taking advantage of me
Apparantly al the distant people who come in touch with me after a looong long time..have something.. i have to stop playing the LOSER.. the guy people can just walk all over.. i want to be cunning and manipulativ
13. Lack of spiritual guidance
I dont know what fucking religion i follow now. I dont know anything about my religion.. I want to believe in something. I want to adore something in life. I want to believe in this force of goodness in this world.
14. Same Hairstyle
I have been having the same fucking hairstyle since forever.
15 Same Phisyque
I have been having the same physique for quite somtime now. Slim tall.. love handles.. I want to build my body.. I hate my body..
I
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